Monday, March 21, 2011

There's A Pill For That

I make lists.
I make lists, I set goals.
I make lists, I set goals, I read books.
I make lists, I set goals, I read books, I tell myself stories,
I tell myself stories of love
And have convinced myself that JOY is only a heartbeat away.
But, at the end of the day,
It is me
And the misery in me,
The, anger in me.
The movie did not hide me from me.
The sex did not replace me with me,
Nor did the beer, the football game or the medical legalization of weed.
This American dream
Is killing me
But I've been too busy to see
That we are fighting over the dead
Instead of coping with the dope in our heads.
Feeling gets me out of my head
But it is going to take a major effort to separate what I, am feeling.
I am floundering to exercise my will
And only now do I find out that anti depressants?! 
Are the number one selling pills -
There’s: Prozac, Zoloft, Luvox, Paxil, Celexa, Lexapro, Sarafem, Remeron, Buspar, Desvrel, Edropax, Vestra, Effexor, Serzone, Cymbalta, Pristiq, Enden, Pamelor, Pertofrane, Sinequan, Surmontil, Elavil, Tofranil, Vivactil, Ludiomil, Adapine, Duloxetine as well as the dopamine reuptake inhibitor antidepressant Wellbutrin, also marketed as Zyban.
I’ve been told that I have a mental disorder
Because I have body dismorphia.
Well, there’s a drug for that too!
You feel tranquilized, metabolized and somehow a bit compartmentalized
And only now do I understand
How it is possible that when they passed the 700 billion dollar bailout,
No one made a move! 
Why?! Because we are tranquilized as we strain our very existence.
So, let’s define the distance
Between you and me although it’s getting harder to be normal.
But first,
Let’s cleans our minds, because they are tainted. 
We do not know who’s voice is speaking anymore.
Is it my lover, my mother, my father, my teacher, or the guy selling the mantra cd’s?
How would I know?
I am too busy processing opinions about me to even realize that I,
Am co-dependent.
I make lists.
I make lists, I set goals.
I make lists, I set goals, I read books.
I make lists, I set goals, I read books and tell myself stories.
I tell myself stories of love
And have convinced myself that JOY is only
A heartbeat away.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Is This Love

Now, here is another song bringing me back to those early 90's years.  Again, Khittl comes in with the schooling...

Give Me Some Emotion

aaaaAAAAHHHH!!!!! I luuuuuuv this soooong!!!!!!!!!  When I moved to vienna in 1990 I met one of my oldest friends Georg Khittl.  Working as a Model and Dj, he started to educate me about the real Soul of Black Music.  Those were some of the greatest moments of my life!  Thank you so much Georg!!!!  Miss you Bro!!

Monday, January 3, 2011

2011: Year of the Rabbit.

The rabbit has two main sides to it.  1. fearful, shy, chaos. and 2. family and harmony.  For most people, the more we concentrate on what is going on in the bigger world instead of our own world, the more we are prone to choose number one.  This is really going to be difficult because it seems that things are going to get really out of hand by the end of this year.  This is a very important time to get our houses in order and concentrate on the most important things in our immediate lives and in our selves.

Do our relationships reflect what we want in our lives?  Have we implemented the necessary boundaries to keep unhealthy people out of our lives and important people in our lives?  These are some of the questions we should be asking ourselves instead of being swept away with the financial crisis and political chaos.  It is easy to see the fear machine growing day by day.  The only way to remain strong in the face of that pressure is to take control of our focus.  If we are focusing our attention on something, it is giving it life.  If we remove our focus from something, it will die; just like if we stop watering a plant, it will die.

These seem like very logical concepts but it is amazing how many people are unable and unaware of these core issues.  So, let’s use this year to help ourselves, thereby helping each other out in these times of uncertainty.  Contrary to what we hear in the news, people are getting stronger and waking up.  We are getting organized and using technology to our advantage.  Let’s make this year our most productive yet and let the energy of GRATEFUL ring through our hearts.

Happy New Year!!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Jesus: The Story of Enlightenment

Deepak Chopra is such a tremendous light on this planet.  I can not begin to expalin how important his work is to me.  GREAT, great video here!!

btw, I read excerpts of this book already and I recommend it.  It is well written and a very easy read.

Sunday, December 5, 2010


I LOOOOOVE this song!!!!!!! aaaaAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!  This is what I call dance music peoples...

Saturday, December 4, 2010

The Advertising World and the Human Ego

Very informative video about how advertising rules our lives, our minds and our livelihood.  The quality of this video is pretty bad but the information in it is truly worth it.